i hate the holidays.

This is such a lonely time for me. All my friends are buying gifts for their significant others and wondering what they may be getting, couples seem to be popping up everywhere I turn...it's just driving me mad! I've never spent the holidays with a boyfriend even though I've had boyfriends during those times. Captain Asshole was gone for majority of our relationship so I never got to properly celebrate with him, Lorne and I broke up in the beginning of December...come to think of it....I think we broke up this very day last year. Wow.......anywho, I just really wish I had someone to be all cute and mushy with. That's not anywhere near my style but I'm craving love and affection right now.